Moved Away Temprorarily

I have moved to Jakarta last January.

If bringing 2 suitcases containing, 2 weeks worth of clothes (most of which are black for my uniform), a laptop, 4 retail and brand management books, 2 towels, and some gym clothes would suffice to relocation, then I have relocated. I have relocated to Jakarta - temporarily.

This is the story of my little adventure in Jakarta.... for now.

EZ dating. Not!

At 36 I thought dating should already be easy. Have dinner. Coffee. Chitchat about life. If both of you are interested, you go out again. If not you can be friends. It's easy! ... Until you fall in love..

These are the times when you start realizing that the pasts are still haunting you. It is sad. Because no matter what you do, no matter how much you try, the fear of hurting again overcomes the giddy feelings of love. The past experiences takes away the daydreams. The scars immediately bring you back to ground level.

Have to let go and be ready again for pain. Because, love can be the greatest feeling of all and ironically, it can equally hurt or more.

Have to tell myself to let go. Let go. Let go.

Reviving the blog

Just found this cool app that allows me to blog anywhere using my IPhone. No more excuses. Will be reviving the blog.

Blog Writer App here I come. So what genre should this blog be?

Dream Hits Bulls Eye

I was out on a romantic trip with an ex boyfriend in some European inspired destination -rock walled buildings and cobblestoned streets were all I can remember of the place. But I do remember the electricity that ran down my spine when our hands locked like it did years back. I felt the love, I felt the energy, I felt the security as we spent our special moment together.

As I we lose ourselves in each other's arms, an invisible power was felt. A ghost of some sort. This ghost did not harm. it had no familiar identity to me nor to him. But we knew it was there.

I woke up.

The emotions were too intense and the dream felt so real. I had to consult a dreams dictionary and interpret it right away.

Will I have a chance to be with him again? Why is the ghost there?

So here are the answers.

...To dream that you are being massaged by your ex-boyfriend, suggests that you need to let go of some of that defensiveness that you have been putting forth. You may have been putting up a wall or armor around you. You need to learn to trust people again. -- www.dreammoods.com

...ghosts are representatives of something that is no longer obtainable or within reach. It indicates a feeling of disconnection from life and society. This dream may be a calling for you to move on and abandon your outdated modes of thinking and behavior. -- www.dreammoods.com

This dream has just hit the target. Amazing!

Don't Be Afraid To Ask

Believe me, He really gives.

Here's something that happened to me last year - also related to the video. Went to church one time and prayed so hard for the Lord to give me money. "Lord, I need money. Please give me money. I'm so broke, I can't even buy food after this mass."

On my way back to my car, I reached in my pocket for my keys and pulled out something else. It's a 100 peso Bill!

Lesson: Be specific with what you want.

Yup, the Lord answered my prayers. Hindi ko nga lang sinabi kung magkano ang kailangan ko. He just gave me enough to help me with the problem I mentioned in my prayer. I should have asked for P1 Million Pesos. heehee.

"Don't be afraid to ask, because He gives"... watch the video for more insights on the topic. Enjoy!

T'was 2006...What Now for 2007

It is time again for my yearly assessment. Let see what we had on our list last year (written Jan 6, 2006):

I would like to be part of a spiritual community so that I will have a group that will keep me grounded and in touch with the Lord every time I falter.
-- Hmm. I did try to join some groups, but none has caught my attention just yet to stick it out. I think I still have to know the kind of company I want.

I would like to be able to contribute to an organization that deals with children’s education and well-being.
-- Well, I think I did some good in this one. I am currently teaching 1 subject in UP-CHE. That should count for at least 1/2 a point.

I would like to buy my own car.
-- Nope. Still driving my ever reliable TLA. I wonder until when she will stay reliable.

Have a boyfriend
--- Hahaha. Yes, I did meet a special someone this year. Unfortunately, I wasn't very detailed in the goal setting - we didn't last longer than a school semester. Aaarrgghhh. What a waste of time.

All in all, 2006 wasn't bad. Although I am in the middle of some type of unexplainable crisis, I was able to wing these wonderful and some not so great, life changing experiences:
-- Traveled alone to Las Vegas
-- Saw the US Capitol - I think I want to live in DC someday.
-- Visited the New York State
-- Saw a bit of China
-- Helped some typhoon victims in Bicol through the efforts of the UP Mountaineers
-- Able to indirectly express to someone how proud I am of him for being able to reach his dream.
-- Learned about what my mother really thinks of me.
-- Had a glimpse of Mother Theresa's charity work.
-- Fell in and out of love
-- Almost moved away
-- Almost got killed
-- Almost changed religion
-- Closed my doors on the boxer but not boxing.
-- Bought a mountain bike. Yahoo! Now I need to ride it more often.


What now for 2007?

Learn Swing and Tango - I want to be able to work that dance floor.

Contribute further Children's Education - Teaching isn't enough. I need to be more involved with younger children.

Join a spiritual community and serve - Try again attending these meetings.

Buy a car to alternate with TLA - Although I love TLA, she has served me well the past 14 years. It is time for her to retire. Or at the least have an alternative. I think I might still keep her.

Find a place of refuge - I need to find a way to separate home from work. Believe me, it isn't always good to have your work this close to your house (in my case, in the garage). You just won't find a place for refuge.

Fall in mutual love with someone - Important word here is 'MUTUAL' - I have made it more specific. I don't know how I am going to do this, but it won't hurt to put it on my goals list.

Welcome 2007! I am ready as ever! GRRRRR!

BODY IN CITY, MIND IN MOUNTAIN

Composed on 10-09-2005

The rain smells so sweet!
After days of sun, heat and dust,
It rains.

Walking in the rain in my rain jacket, I reminisce:
Standing at the mountain peak, pouring.
Caring only of the challenge I had just triumphed over

Standing in the rain sheltered by my umbrella,
I hear the rain drop on my tent.

Let me run through the rain again.

Kinilabutan Ako!

Today, September 4, 2006, I was checking to see if this blogspot is already listed on yahoo search. So I typed in "JINJ" and I found this out:

JINJ is actually an acronym for "Jesus Is No Joke". It is a group that aims to remind people of the existence of JESUS. Ang galing ano?

Eto pa...

So I thought, "This is so Cool!" So I joined their egroup. Guess what? their egroup was founded on October 2, 2005 -- Day of my Birthday.

Kinilabutan ako!!